This is a work of fiction which uses the main character’s approach to dealing with trauma and loss as a dark, but entertaining, tale of self-discovery. The self-deprecatingly, darkly sardonic humor helps to tone down the horrific nature of the trauma that Christian has endured. His quest for the truth of his past helps it to read like a mystery and an unexpected twist and the awful truth he discovers makes it seem mildly like a thriller. Regardless, despite its dark nature, the purpose of this book is to entertain.

         This book would appeal to fiction readers looking for a thought provoking read. There are elements of mystery and thriller to the story but it would mainly be of interest to general fiction readers who don’t mind the dark topics in the novel. It might possibly work for a class or book club, but personally, I wouldn’t enjoy discussing the story with others in depth.

         The switch between first and third person narrators, past and present, and at least one instance of exploring the unconscious point of view of a supporting character is jarring in an intriguing way. Somehow, Christian’s first person point of view softens the nature of some of the anguish he endures because he looks at things in a matter of fact and unemotional manner. He doesn’t fully acknowledge the situation, which is, as a matter of fact a major reason for his current issues and results in his obsession with repeatedly dying.

         This is a good book, but I didn’t particularly enjoy it. The things that he discovers in his memories are awful and I really hate reading about children being hurt. Despite my own personal issues with the story, the book is quite interesting. The very choppiness of the short chapters which switch narration styles and jump back and forth through time, makes it a unique read. Given his past, there really is no way to expect a happy ending, and as more and more about his past and present is revealed, that fact becomes more and more evident. Perhaps there is a chance for him to come to terms with his past and achieve some semblance of acceptance or even redemption, but for the most part it seems as if putting himself through all this pain is for nothing. While it really is a good book, it is the type that leaves one rather depressed for a bit after putting it down. Still, it would be a good addition to a library’s fiction collection.

© 2014 Natalie Kelley-Wilson

Natalie Kelley-Wilson graduated from Allegheny College with a BA in English Lit. and from Clarion University with a Masters in Library Science. Currently she works at her town’s public library and the county historical society. Email: nataliekelleywilson82@gmail.com